Dorothy Pitre Young……
My Emotional Open Letter To My Mom…..
How time has flown by these last years since you have not been here to see everything that has changed my life. I miss you more than words can describe as I type this letter. You gave me so many life lessons, and the tools to be able to be a great mommy, wife, teacher, cook, and even spiritual helper. As, I gaze upon this picture I see myself in you, and the boys too. When you began to become ill, which was very suddenly it tore me up inside. I can remember the day that you called me at work, and I was teaching Kindergarten. It was as if we were supposed to talk that day, and time. Our conversations were always so authentic, and full of so much love.
I listened on the other end of the phone, and it was as if you needed my permission to let go. I remember the words to the exact thing you told me. You said, “I don’t think I’m going to get better this time monkey.” (*tears*) This was a way of helping me accept that, this may had been one of our last phone conversations. Everything that we have shared down to space, time, love, gratitude, hugs, kisses, cooking, teaching, and being a good wife. God does the most amazing things that we almost can’t even imagine. Giving birth to Cole on February 10, 2007, was a time when I was going through the most intense, emotional moments in my life. Cole was born so ill, I was going through a divorce, losing my house, and didn’t know what we were going to do, or how to gain strength from these terrible life events.
Trusting In God….
You always told me Joy trust in God, and hold fast to his grace and mercy. Momma I did that and it was the most toughest time of endurance that I ever went through in my life. It was then that I really learned what a prayer closet was, how to pray, seek him, and trust and understand what he was doing with my life. The bible became a place of refuge for me, teaching Caleb how to get on his knees with me. You taught me how to pull myself together, and get stronger. Momma I did get stronger, wiser, and what didn’t break me made me so strong!!!!! You walked through those life events with me, even though you were ill too. I couldn’t have asked for a better momma, and teacher. Once we were through our biggest hurdle with Cole, you began to get really weary. God doesn’t rob us of our death, he definitely allows us to have the best moments with those before they depart. Once you could rest, and hold that baby that gave you permission to rest even more.
From all the pain, heartache, and places of unrest. Once I said my goodbyes, this man came into my life 5 years later, and was the biggest blessing in disguise that I needed, and the boys needed. They needed that stability, the male companionship, the opportunity to do boys things.
he gave Caleb, and Cole stability, love, a father, and someone that they DO call “DADDY”!!! Jerral has been in my life since Cole was 3 years old. I prayed for this type of man, and God hears your heart folks. Momma, Jerral let me believe that great marriages still exist! He also put me in such a place in his heart, that even I didn’t know that place did exist. The kind of love that Jerral was giving was something of disbelief.. Along with all of the great things that he brought he brought these two little folks with him. (Aaron and Austin)!!
Life Now As I See It….
Most Mother’s Day’s can be bearable, and Jackie and I can get through them superbly. This Mother’s Day brought on so much emotion, and tears. I miss our friendship, our talks, cooking with you, my spiritual advisor, and just hearing your voice mostly. The other day I wanted to call you so badly, but I just spoke out loud to you. (tears)!! Thank you momma for strengthening me, building me into who I am, teaching me. Jerral says, ” Man I’ve never met her, but I know she was great.” She gave me this type of wife, and put into you the best ingredients ever. (chuckle)… Momma part of my heart will always be with you, and still look for you, no matter what.
Forever My Mommy You Will Be…..